Wednesday, August 17, 2016

Time to Fly, Little Birds

I'm laying here the night before the first day in a new school starts for our sweet chickadees & I can't sleep. Tomorrow is a day that I have both dreaded and eagerly anticipated for months now. So many thoughts and emotions running through my head. I'm Sad. Anxious. Excited. Hopeful. Thankful. Humble. Frustrated. Mad. Joyful. Worried. Grateful. Did I say Sad? How can I be all of these things at once??? I don't know, but I am!! 

Have we done everything we can to prepare them for a new school? Did we forget anything? What if they get lost? Feel lonely? Have their feelings hurt? Don't know what to do? Miss me? (Of course they will miss me!) Will the teachers take care of them? Will their classmates reach out to them? Will they make friends easily? Madison told me tonight that she would probably just play by herself at recess... To which I responded "well that's okay, if that's what you want to do. But it would be good if you could find some friends to play with." And then I immediately teared up and prayed "Jesus, please send her a friend quickly! Like at 8:06 tomorrow morning would be good!!"

The reality is this.. I can't always be with them. I won't be there to tie their shoes, fill their water bottles, make sure their work is done right, help them make friends, or find the bathroom. But I am so thankful for the precious reassurance we have that God is always with us...He will be with them every step of the way. After all, they are His, before they are mine. 

Here's the truth: If I had it my way, we would still be in Tulsa, starting another year at Regent. Our home that we loved so much. In my flesh, I think "that would make me happy & all would be right with the world if that were happening." But I know in my heart that's not true, because that is not what God had in store for us. His will is not always what we think is best, but it is Always BEST. So I am resting in that truth & in his promise that He has plans to prosper us and not to harm us. The day I filled out the applications for OCS, God filled my heart with Joshua 1:9..."Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. For the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go!" 


So...

Mackenzie & Madison,

Tomorrow begins a new adventure for you! 4th & 2nd grade at Oklahoma Christian School! Daddy and I are so proud of you both & how well you have handled our move and this transition from Tulsa to OKC. We know that you are a little bit nervous and unsure about things, but you are going to do great! Do not be afraid or discouraged because God will be with you!! It doesn't get any better than that! You are beautiful, smart, funny...all you need to do is BE YOU! Be the sweet girls God created you to be & you will thrive! My prayer through this whole process is just that God would go before us & prepare the way. I have prayed for the friends I know He has for you both. I have prayed that you would be happy, healthy, & loved at your new school. I have prayed that God would give you the teachers who will be just right for each of you. I have prayed that He would protect your innocence & preserve all that we took away from our years at Regent. I have prayed that you would both learn to love Jesus more and more every day. We talked yesterday about how we all have our own "bubbles" where we are most comfortable, but sometimes we have to be brave and pop our bubbles so we can experience new things & make new friends. So, pop your bubbles, little birds! God has great things in store for you. Spread your wings and fly!! And always know...your Momma is cheering you on and will always be here to catch you if you fall. 
I love you so very much!!


And Jonah--

It's off to Preschool at Joyful Noise for you!! Go get 'em, buddy!! Be nice, obey your teacher, don't throw things, hit people, or poop in your pants! 😂 It's hard to believe you are almost 4 years old! I have prayed for you too, that God would put you in the right place, surround you with friends, and help you to grow and learn this year. We love you & look forward to all you are going to experience this year!! 
Love always,

- Momma

Meet the Teacher

We went to the school today to meet the girls' teachers & check out their new classrooms! Madison's teacher is Mrs. Parsons and Mackenzie has Mrs. Frankfurt. The girls got to organize their school supplies and meet a few new friends. They were both very shy, so we had a little talk about being brave & getting outside of our comfort zones on the drive back to G-Ma's house. I know that is to be expected, but I am trying to help prepare them as best I can! Some things that are different for us this year that the girls are excited about: not wearing uniforms, getting to wear nail polish to school, having a snack during the day, and learning to type and use a computer! 
Mackenzie's teacher asked if she wanted to go by "Mack" or "Mackenzie," and her response was "Kenzie." LOL! We don't really ever call her that, but she was adamant about it, and it wasn't a battle I was going to face in that moment. When I asked her why "Kenzie," she said in a very matter of fact way, "Because that's what Kinley always calls me!" I almost burst into tears right then and there. She's really going to miss her BFF, and if having her new friends call her "Kenzie" makes her feel better, then so be it! 
We went to lunch at McAlister's with the Matthiesen's and then went to their house to play and visit. It was a fun way to spend our last day of the summer! 
After meeting their teachers & becoming a little more familiar with the school, I am excited about OCS! Honestly though, I left the school in tears, because my heart is just missing what I know and love. My emotions are all over the place! But, thankfully, the girls just seem to be excited! (and a little nervous!)  There is still a tiny little part of me that wonders and hopes we made the right decision. But, shortly after we decided to move forward with OCS, Brian sent me this quote (not sure where he got it) "We are tempted to obsess over whether we chose the right door or not. But, it is better to go through the wrong door with your best self, than to go through the right door with your wrong self. It's not always about the decision we've made, but about throwing yourself into executing it after it's made. If we stew over what might have been, we rob ourselves of the spiritual and emotional energy we need to live well, right here and now." 
Now, that's not to say I think we've made the wrong decision...I really don't...but, it's a good reminder to me that THIS is where we are. Not at Regent. Not at any other school in OKC. We are at Oklahoma Christian School. We are Saints now! And it's going to be great!! I know that the Lord guided us here, and I can't wait to see what He has in store for us this year! So, I'm going to try to take a deep breathe, sit back, and enjoy the ride...because I know He has gone before us. 
They each got a school t-shirt...I love this verse!
Minus Mackenzie's distorted face, this is a neat pano of Madison's classroom. It is a very bright & cheerful room!
We are all very excited about the Library! 
Jonah was a little pickle...trying to fill out paperwork, meet new people, help the girls feel comfortable, and chase him around was exhausting! But we made it! 
Mackenzie was very excited that they have A to Z Mystery books in the library. Those are her favorite!
What a fun Librarian! Reminds me of another Librarian we know! 
Jonah was a big fan of the tent in Mackenzie's classroom! 
Kenzie's classroom has an outdoorsy theme to it...along with the tent, there is also a picnic table! 
Today it says "Mack," tomorrow it will say "Kenzie!" I really tried to talk her into just going with the name we gave her...you know, the one she's been called for the last almost 10 years...but she said "It's just too long!" 
This bulletin board made my heart happy! 

Tuesday, June 28, 2016

June Misc.

Here are some random pictures from June!
Jonah loves The Lion Guard, and he is especially a fan of the "hanabynenas" (hyenas)! LOL! And getting him to Look AND Smile is nearly impossible! But he's very good at smiling and staring off into space or closing his eyes! Guess I'll take what I can get! 
Playing McDonald's at G-Ma's house is still a favorite!
Madison made Pony a nurse's costume...this girl loves her Pony!
I really like having pretty fingernails! 
An early birthday dinner at G-Ma's house!
We still had some Build-a-Bear gift cards, so off we went! Because we NEED more stuffed animals at our house. Ugh!!
I found him entertaining himself in this mirror...so funny!
The girls have been wanting these rock star Build-a-Bears for a long time, so they were very happy!
I got to have dinner at Ted's with my BFF from High School, Kelley. Love her!! 
She didn't like the pic from dinner, so we took another one at church the next morning.
Now this is a very good picture to describe our summer...I got very tired of packing/unpacking/loading/unloading! 
Daddy and Mackenzie have been watching The Pirates of the Caribbean. Every time they decide to watch another one, Mackenzie shows up in her pirate costume! 
Ready for VBS fun! 
We got to celebrate Kelsey's 1st birthday! I can't believe it's already been a year! Precious baby girl!