I'm laying here the night before the first day in a new school starts for our sweet chickadees & I can't sleep. Tomorrow is a day that I have both dreaded and eagerly anticipated for months now. So many thoughts and emotions running through my head. I'm Sad. Anxious. Excited. Hopeful. Thankful. Humble. Frustrated. Mad. Joyful. Worried. Grateful. Did I say Sad? How can I be all of these things at once??? I don't know, but I am!!
Have we done everything we can to prepare them for a new school? Did we forget anything? What if they get lost? Feel lonely? Have their feelings hurt? Don't know what to do? Miss me? (Of course they will miss me!) Will the teachers take care of them? Will their classmates reach out to them? Will they make friends easily? Madison told me tonight that she would probably just play by herself at recess... To which I responded "well that's okay, if that's what you want to do. But it would be good if you could find some friends to play with." And then I immediately teared up and prayed "Jesus, please send her a friend quickly! Like at 8:06 tomorrow morning would be good!!"
The reality is this.. I can't always be with them. I won't be there to tie their shoes, fill their water bottles, make sure their work is done right, help them make friends, or find the bathroom. But I am so thankful for the precious reassurance we have that God is always with us...He will be with them every step of the way. After all, they are His, before they are mine.
Here's the truth: If I had it my way, we would still be in Tulsa, starting another year at Regent. Our home that we loved so much. In my flesh, I think "that would make me happy & all would be right with the world if that were happening." But I know in my heart that's not true, because that is not what God had in store for us. His will is not always what we think is best, but it is Always BEST. So I am resting in that truth & in his promise that He has plans to prosper us and not to harm us. The day I filled out the applications for OCS, God filled my heart with Joshua 1:9..."Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. For the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go!"
Mackenzie & Madison,
Tomorrow begins a new adventure for you! 4th & 2nd grade at Oklahoma Christian School! Daddy and I are so proud of you both & how well you have handled our move and this transition from Tulsa to OKC. We know that you are a little bit nervous and unsure about things, but you are going to do great! Do not be afraid or discouraged because God will be with you!! It doesn't get any better than that! You are beautiful, smart, funny...all you need to do is BE YOU! Be the sweet girls God created you to be & you will thrive! My prayer through this whole process is just that God would go before us & prepare the way. I have prayed for the friends I know He has for you both. I have prayed that you would be happy, healthy, & loved at your new school. I have prayed that God would give you the teachers who will be just right for each of you. I have prayed that He would protect your innocence & preserve all that we took away from our years at Regent. I have prayed that you would both learn to love Jesus more and more every day. We talked yesterday about how we all have our own "bubbles" where we are most comfortable, but sometimes we have to be brave and pop our bubbles so we can experience new things & make new friends. So, pop your bubbles, little birds! God has great things in store for you. Spread your wings and fly!! And always know...your Momma is cheering you on and will always be here to catch you if you fall.
I love you so very much!!
It's off to Preschool at Joyful Noise for you!! Go get 'em, buddy!! Be nice, obey your teacher, don't throw things, hit people, or poop in your pants! 😂 It's hard to believe you are almost 4 years old! I have prayed for you too, that God would put you in the right place, surround you with friends, and help you to grow and learn this year. We love you & look forward to all you are going to experience this year!!